AN ENFJ SOCIAL MEDIA DETOX JOURNAL

 Day 8 of moving away from being a chronic online zombie.  I feel gratitude for being able to make this change.  Although not perfect (my thumbs have a mind of their own), I have managed to decrease my screen time drastically.  I still carry my phone with me to every room, but my eyes are more peeled to my surroundings.  I've had more healthy communication with friends, family, and my husband.  I even started writing a book.  I'm excited about what else is going to come from this. I feel a greater presence of freedom. Freedom of time mainly. I went on a few mini adventures this weekend to past the extra time. That felt a lot better than constantly checking my phone for notifications. 

 My chest is tight. Two days off social media and I can feel the hunger in me. I am starving. Not for likes or attention. For connection that matters, the kind that gives life weight. The kind that is not a game or a task. The kind that comes naturally because we are human. Everything else feels empty. Work, hobbies, scrolling through my own thoughts alone. None of it touches the part of me that wants to be reflected in someone else. Humans are not meant to carry life alone. We understand ourselves when we are with others, when our words and fears and small joys meet theirs. Without that, everything feels thin, hollow, incomplete. I want this kind of connection without giving everything away or burning out. I want depth without exhaustion. I wonder if that is selfish or impossible. Maybe it is. But I keep thinking that healthy connection is not about performing or proving myself. It is about honesty and courage and showing up even when it is uncomfortable. That might be the only wa...